Posted Tuesday May 5, 2009

Today was a better day...

Today was a little better than the last few have been! I did not begin crying immediately upon waking up this morning, so I consider that a huge step in this process!Each day seems to be getting a little easier, and I'm finding that each little smile, or even a small laugh, makes me feel amazingly happy. It's odd that I feel so excited about something as simple as a smile on my own face...
I'm realizing that I will, with time, get through this. I will ALWAYS be a mommy to an angel in heaven, and someday I will hold and play with and kiss my little angel baby. I also know that God has a plan for us, and we have to keep faith in that!!!
I received a little saying in an email today that spoke right to my heart about all this:

When you're down to nothing,
GOD is up to something!

Worry looks around,
Sorry looks back,
Faith looks up.

Of course, I want more than anything to be pregnant right now, but I have to be patient, let my body recoup, and become as healthy as possible for the next time around. AND TRUST IN HIM!!!
I'm going to embrace the good days, and let myself cry my eyeballs out during the bad times!
I have had a fabulous support system, my friends, family, and the lovely ladies on the grief & loss board and I am soo thankful for everyone!